Looking for the light at the end of the tunnel
So it's been a while since I blogged, but it's with good reason. I've been so sick the past 6 weeks due to morning sickness... Yes, I am preggers. I probably won't post this entry until we start telling people, which we plan to do beginning this weekend. I am almost 12 weeks now. The nausea, puking and exhaustion has been like nothing I ever envisioned and I pray every morning when my eyes open that it'll finally be the day I feel "normal" again. Now that I'm ending my first trimester I'm hoping these symptoms subside and I start to enjoy the supposed "best" trimester - the second.
I've had many thoughts/feelings since first seeing those eight letters on the stick. I had a dream that I was pregnant so I took a test and wouldn't you know it, my dream was true. I have since had a dream about actually giving birth and the baby was a boy... We'll see if that dream comes true too. I really don't care what sex he/she turns out to be, but am anxious to find out. Hubby was initially shocked, then I think he moved to denial and now is perhaps at the excited/anxious stage... He has been great though. I go to work, barely make it through the day and just come home and crash - sometimes by 7pm! He's been taking care of all the household chores - dishes, cleaning, trash, walking the dogs, etc and hasn't really complained once. He makes sure I eat at least a little and has been taking care of me despite working 12+ hrs/day lately.
I've had one u/s so far and it was early on, so I literally only saw a blob. I have another one scheduled in 10 days so I'm thinking that one will be more reflective of what is really growing inside of me. My OB used the doppler today and I was able to hear the heartbeat for the first time. It was a surreal experience. I knew I was pregnant, but hearing the heartbeat today kind of drove it home and I think it's finally hit me that I am really pregnant. I drove home kind of dazed and numb. After thinking I never wanted to have kids to now being pregnant, my life feels like it's been turned upside down. It's happened so I'm embracing it and praying that I don't royally screw this up somehow... I guess we'll see!
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I've had many thoughts/feelings since first seeing those eight letters on the stick. I had a dream that I was pregnant so I took a test and wouldn't you know it, my dream was true. I have since had a dream about actually giving birth and the baby was a boy... We'll see if that dream comes true too. I really don't care what sex he/she turns out to be, but am anxious to find out. Hubby was initially shocked, then I think he moved to denial and now is perhaps at the excited/anxious stage... He has been great though. I go to work, barely make it through the day and just come home and crash - sometimes by 7pm! He's been taking care of all the household chores - dishes, cleaning, trash, walking the dogs, etc and hasn't really complained once. He makes sure I eat at least a little and has been taking care of me despite working 12+ hrs/day lately.
I've had one u/s so far and it was early on, so I literally only saw a blob. I have another one scheduled in 10 days so I'm thinking that one will be more reflective of what is really growing inside of me. My OB used the doppler today and I was able to hear the heartbeat for the first time. It was a surreal experience. I knew I was pregnant, but hearing the heartbeat today kind of drove it home and I think it's finally hit me that I am really pregnant. I drove home kind of dazed and numb. After thinking I never wanted to have kids to now being pregnant, my life feels like it's been turned upside down. It's happened so I'm embracing it and praying that I don't royally screw this up somehow... I guess we'll see!
***11W3D***
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