Childbirth Classes
So we had our childbirth classes yesterday and I think it has permanently left a tiny scar in our brains forever... The information was useful and good to know, but the video we could have definitely done without. There was no time to close our eyes or look away before we saw the two mothers actually giving birth. I had never ever seen that. On TV you just see a baby appear magically, but this showed the labor and the step by step delivery up close and personal and now I can't get those images out of my head!!! Of course that led to nightmares last night and I hardly slept. And now it's made this pregnancy even more real and the inevitable delivery more horrifying...
We were shown the video right before our lunch break and during lunch Freddie was just looking at me and quiet most of the meal. I think he was still in shock. He did say "sorry and I'm wrong and you're right." I had no idea what he was talking about because we weren't arguing or anything. I think it was a general statement apologizing for every time he'd given me attitude or made a smart comment during this pregnancy. It sounded like he had a new appreciation of what I (and all expecting mothers) went through and that what he had to deal with paled in comparison.
I feel more educated about the labor and delivery process, but still am apprehensive. I think I have a decent tolerance for pain so I hope I can deal with the labor once I get the epi as well. But who knows. I'm sure it's nothing like I've ever experienced even with the epi. There is nothing I can do so I'm just trying not to think about it. In the meantime, the little monster is at it all day, every day. I don't know what he's doing in there, but it is definitely not just uncomfortable anymore, but painful! I was walking yesterday in the hospital and crouched over in a split second from severe pain and couldn't walk for a few seconds. I don't know what happened, but it was sudden and not fun. Now that I'm at 35 weeks, I guess my body is getting ready... There are things that happen everyday lately that are unfamiliar, but I'm just attributing it to my body preparing. Unless I am in continuous pain, I'll just suck it up and deal with it. I really do pray that the weather doesn't warm up too much because my feet and hands are really beginning to hurt constantly. I have another prenatal massage this coming Sunday and I can't wait...
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We were shown the video right before our lunch break and during lunch Freddie was just looking at me and quiet most of the meal. I think he was still in shock. He did say "sorry and I'm wrong and you're right." I had no idea what he was talking about because we weren't arguing or anything. I think it was a general statement apologizing for every time he'd given me attitude or made a smart comment during this pregnancy. It sounded like he had a new appreciation of what I (and all expecting mothers) went through and that what he had to deal with paled in comparison.
I feel more educated about the labor and delivery process, but still am apprehensive. I think I have a decent tolerance for pain so I hope I can deal with the labor once I get the epi as well. But who knows. I'm sure it's nothing like I've ever experienced even with the epi. There is nothing I can do so I'm just trying not to think about it. In the meantime, the little monster is at it all day, every day. I don't know what he's doing in there, but it is definitely not just uncomfortable anymore, but painful! I was walking yesterday in the hospital and crouched over in a split second from severe pain and couldn't walk for a few seconds. I don't know what happened, but it was sudden and not fun. Now that I'm at 35 weeks, I guess my body is getting ready... There are things that happen everyday lately that are unfamiliar, but I'm just attributing it to my body preparing. Unless I am in continuous pain, I'll just suck it up and deal with it. I really do pray that the weather doesn't warm up too much because my feet and hands are really beginning to hurt constantly. I have another prenatal massage this coming Sunday and I can't wait...
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