D-Day~
So it's officially my EDD! Of course the little monster is happily just kicking away in me, hurting me and showing no signs of wanting to meet me... 
Last night was one of the worst to date. I hardly slept, was having random contractions and I think was just anxious in general, which made it worse... I think Freddie is feeling anxious too cuz he was tossing and turning and usually he sleeps like a log.
Certain things happened over the weekend that made me believe that labor was around the corner, but nothing yet. I can definitely feel my body changing though... Now that it's down to the wire, I'm getting a bit excited. That wouldn't be a word I would have used even last week. It was more like fear and slight denial still. Fear of the labor and delivery and denial that I am going to be a mom soon and will have to put this little one first forever... I am still anxious about the labor and delivery, but feel like I can do it - not like I have a choice anyway! But I don't feel as freaked out about it as I did throughout the pregnancy. I'm sure it'll still be like nothing I ever imagined, but I'm ready... I just pray that everything goes smoothly and that there are no complications. My worst nightmare would be ending up with an emergency c-section... But that is out of my control so I just try not to think about it.
So it's hit me that my mom will be here in only another week as well. It'll be interesting... I haven't spent so much time with her since I left home to go to college! An entire month with her and the baby... At least we'll have the nanny helping us out so we won't have to deal with the day to day things like cooking and cleaning. Plus if I need to sleep the nanny can watch the baby. I'm sure sleep will be limited.
Anyway, we'll see what the rest of the day brings~ I have another OB appt tomorrow. We'll be discussing when I should be induced if this baby doesn't come out on his own by next Monday. I really don't want to be induced so I'm crossing my fingers he makes his way out before then!
***40d0w***
Last night was one of the worst to date. I hardly slept, was having random contractions and I think was just anxious in general, which made it worse... I think Freddie is feeling anxious too cuz he was tossing and turning and usually he sleeps like a log. Certain things happened over the weekend that made me believe that labor was around the corner, but nothing yet. I can definitely feel my body changing though... Now that it's down to the wire, I'm getting a bit excited. That wouldn't be a word I would have used even last week. It was more like fear and slight denial still. Fear of the labor and delivery and denial that I am going to be a mom soon and will have to put this little one first forever... I am still anxious about the labor and delivery, but feel like I can do it - not like I have a choice anyway! But I don't feel as freaked out about it as I did throughout the pregnancy. I'm sure it'll still be like nothing I ever imagined, but I'm ready... I just pray that everything goes smoothly and that there are no complications. My worst nightmare would be ending up with an emergency c-section... But that is out of my control so I just try not to think about it.
So it's hit me that my mom will be here in only another week as well. It'll be interesting... I haven't spent so much time with her since I left home to go to college! An entire month with her and the baby... At least we'll have the nanny helping us out so we won't have to deal with the day to day things like cooking and cleaning. Plus if I need to sleep the nanny can watch the baby. I'm sure sleep will be limited.
Anyway, we'll see what the rest of the day brings~ I have another OB appt tomorrow. We'll be discussing when I should be induced if this baby doesn't come out on his own by next Monday. I really don't want to be induced so I'm crossing my fingers he makes his way out before then!
***40d0w***
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