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So it has already been 12 weeks!  I can't believe it!  My baby is growing up so fast and there's nothing I can do to stop it!  He's now outgrowing his newborn onesies and slowly filling out the 0-3 month clothes.  I only have three weeks left of my maternity leave...   I am going to be so sad going back to work and leaving Keoni at daycare!  I wish I could just work part-time or become a 1099.  Perhaps it's something I can look into someday...  He is going to have so many 1sts and I might miss them!  This week he actually grabbed one of his ring toys.  Also, he's gained so much more neck/head control!  Fred makes him practice everyday when he gets home from work and we can actually see the improvement day by day!  It seems so insignificant, but it is such a big deal to us.  I guess this is parenthood!  We ooh and ahh with every new little thing he does and he reciprocates by smiling at us non-stop...  I love watching Fred interact with Keoni.  He's going to be a great father.  He loves playing with him and I can see the love he has for him.  I would have never thought he'd be like this with a baby when I met him.  I know it's different because it's his own, but still.  He gets up in the middle of the night to feed him, comes home early so I can take a nap, plays with him and talks to him...  I couldn't ask for anything more and am grateful.  By the end of the day I am so exhausted from taking care of Keoni all day long after minimal sleep...  Usually I am able to take a short nap when Fred comes home, which helps immensely.  I can feel like a new person even with just a short power nap! 

So I am heading to Chicago this weekend for Stacie's bachelorette party.  It's going to be interesting...  I will have to continue pumping and it's going to be a challenge to do so while being out and about.  I'll have to juggle it somehow.  I won't compromise all the work I've done the past 12 weeks to get my supply to where it is now in just one weekend!  My supply has gotten much better.  I am keeping up with Keoni's needs.  I don't know what I'll do when we'll have to give him more per feeding, but for now, it's all good.  I'm so glad I can give him this since it's something you can't buy or ever substitute with anything else.  Who would have thought I'd be so dedicated with this and not give up.  I surprise myself daily as I get up at 3am to pump or pump in the car...  The things we do for our little one's...  Now I know what it means to do anything for your children.  I feel that way.  When I look down at him in my arms asleep, I still cannot believe that he is mine.  I cannot believe he relies on us completely for everything and that we are responsible for this life.  I think we're doing ok so far and hope it continues to be a happy journey ahead!